In Control
Thursday, June 19, 2008
In early February I contracted a viral infection in my left eye because of the use of contact lenses. It wasn't so bad at first, just a redness and burning sensation. Not long thereafter the pains began; headaches, nausea, and bone-jarring pain throughout my face. It continued for 3 days, and I began to get so frustrated because I had to stay at home and could not go to church. I could not even leave my room in fact.
After visiting a specialist, he changed my eye drops and asked me to come back in five days time. By the second day of using the drops, I could not open my left eye and the pain was excruciating. I came to church on that Sunday morning very frustrated with God for putting me through all this pain. I did not realize that this was my test. God forgive my poor attitude.
I could barely see in the sunlight without my eyes watering and burning. That made me more upset with God. I thought by coming to church I'd get some relief, not more pain. That very night, my left eye could not open without pain, and my right eye had started as well. I was rushed to the hospital, and yet through all the pain and tears, nothing could be done until the doctor saw me. The nurses tried for an hour to contact the doctor, but to no avail. I thought, "God, is this what You want, for me to suffer? Is this how You show Your love for Your child?" The nurses bound both my eyes and put a protective gauze over them, and I was sent home and asked to come back the next day.
The next day was a real experience for me when I entered my room still blindfolded. I had to feel my way around my room. To walk to my cupboard and find my way to the bathroom on my own was so frightening. I did not want to be blind, but if I continued on the path I was on I might lose my sight. I realized that I was wrong to be angry with God. He created my eye and he could make it better. I asked him for forgiveness and promised I would allow him to take control.
When we went to see the doctor the next morning, he was shocked to discover that the outer layer of my eye was completely disintegrated and gone, therefore the pain I was suffering. He changed my eye-drops and put in a local anesthetic that numbed my eye. I was able to see again.
Later that night, my mum sat and talked to me about when Brother Branham prayed for the little girl with empty eye sockets. Not only did God fill those eye sockets, but He gave her the blue eyes she desired. If God can create those eyeballs from nothing, He most certainly could perform a miracle. I know now that God used this experience and even brought me right down to show me that HE is in control, not ME!
Not long after my eyes healed, I went for an eye test and found that my left eye, which was always my weaker eye, was now stronger than my right eye. GOD has proved to me again that if I give Him the reins, He will take over and do what He thinks is best for me. I just take it one day at a time and thank God for loving me and taking care of me.